Tuesday, March 10, 2009

What a stressful day! When I have days like this I always think of the words, Physician, heal thyself! I have no idea who said it, but if only I could remain calm and collected. There seems to be so much stress about these days - the is almost rattling with it.

I had a breakfast meeting at 8 am so had set the alarm for 7. At 6.30 I was rudely awakened by my husband doing an impression of Tigger jumping up and down. With the story of the rampaging kangaroo in the news yesterday fresh in my mind, I thought he must be fighting off an intruder or wrestling with the cat. No, he just had cramp. Aaaargh. Couldn't he have had it quietly. That extra half an hour would have made so much difference to the day.

Feeling quite informed and inspired by my early meeting - and now fully awake - I set off to gather some information required to complete a form for charity registration of an organisation of which I am a trustee. More jangling and skills needed here to calm and reassure. I arrived home, concerned and disoriented, wondering how best to deal with the situation, only to find my driveway surrounded by EDF vans, milling workmen and with a large hole being gouged by a small digger. AND the dustbin (not the recycling one but the smelly rubbish one) had not been emptied. Aaaargh again.

The workmen were sympathetic and helpful though, as was the council who came and emptied the bin within a couple of hours, despite promising only "within the next 24 hours". Praise where praise is due and I know just how easy it is only to see the negative in the day.

The jarring continued - muddles over holiday dates to be sorted, too much to fit into too little time, making what should be a relaxing break into a dash from one place to another.

Then..... an afternoon of calming clients slowed me down and relaxed me too. Maybe that is where the "heal thyself" comes in as I certainly do love and benefit from the work I do.

A jangly evening though. Where does all that stuff come from sometimes that pours unexpectedly from deep within ourselves? Suddenly the tap is turned and it all just comes gushing out.

Looking forward to tomorrow - a walk with a good friend in the fresh air to hopefully restore my equilibrium and get some perspective on my life at the moment. What this space!